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February 03

Olvidada

Mucho tiempo sin haber escrito nada jeje espero que les agrade este escrito:

Aun me recuerdas?

Aun aparezco en tus pensamientos nocturnos?

O me he esfumado en lo mas profundo de tus reuerdos?

No encuentro respuesta a mis dudas

Tus labios estan sellados

Aun asi esperare por mas tiempo...

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August 22

Por que debo sentirme asi ante su presencia
Un ser despiadado al cual solia detestar
Y que ahora no puedo dejar
Envenanada por mi propia realidad
Trato de dejar y escapar
Tratando de evitar esa comunidad
Entre su piel y la mia
Entre mis sollozos y suspiros
Trato de encontrar verdad
Pero solo encuentro pensamientos
Y mas duda
Dividida entre lo que fue y sera
Algun dia encontrare de nuevo mi paz interna?
Desearia nunca haberle conocido
Ahora mis pensamientos son suyos
Una y otra vez la misma espada atraviesa
El corazon congelado en tiempos...
Esos tiempos que pense acabarian
Estare entonces atrapada
Hasta que decidas liberar mi marchito cuerpo

August 09

The 69 eyes

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July 07

In my dreams

Deep and true...cold as ice

that's what my dreams are

a cold prision my destiny

my way in life is a mistery

still a white light is always there

for me to shine for you

can't figure out where my end starts

is that the real end or just a lost

another time I can't remember anymore

when I believe in love, truth and friendship

but never is forever

still see you talking but I can't understand what you say

you can see I've lost and can't find

let's meet again into the night

in a cold dream while the moon casts a curse

over you and me, never is forever....

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June 15

Crimson Tears

I know you don't care

Can't see behind me, know you don't feel the same

Shameless heart deaf ears

Can't take it anymore

Want you to disappear, want you to go

My memories of you are grey now

No emotions in my heart anymore

Your smile makes me cry, not want your warm arms

Why is this? If not just lies and broken dreams

All that used to support me

But now this is our farewell

Sadness pourin trough my heart is the only real thing

You use to understand and listen as I also try to do

But now is time to say goodbye and carry on

Time to grow up

May 05

nIGHT angeLS

The moon was full, the stars where shining

There was magic that memorable night

I was one with the nature, moonlight and...

Suddenly I hear a song, this song broke my soul

A song of ancient times of a lonely past

Then an angel call me in the night

I listen in silence his tale:

"Long ago there was only wisdom in this world

But then Pandora opens the box, and all went wrong

All the mans started to killed each other

To envy the neighbor belongings

Your world is about to end, and be sacrifice in the holy fire

For a God who is tired of looking this way of life

I only came for you, to preserve one soul

Will you then die and become one with me"

I was crying at the end of the tale, but then...

I heard this voice of my mother the moon

Warnig me: "Don't believe, he is lying, he is..."

But then it was too late, I can't hear anything more

I want to die for so long, this was my chance

Goodbye mother, goodbye night.

April 29

Still

Still waiting

Still wanting

Can write anymore

My muse has abandoned me

And you too, there's no truly friends in this world

Love doesn't exist

We are her to die

An unexistence is what I'm living

Still I'm here,

But why?

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April 04

Fade

i'M sCreaming ALL the time

i'M fadING lIKe A bUTTerfly

suICIde BLOOD run through MY veINS

SUIcidal WISHES EVERY time

GEtting bIGger AND bigger AGAIN

LooKING into MYSELF is likE TO KILL

aM I That Much TO handle?

will YOU take tHAT chaLLENGE?

I know yOU WONT

So MAKE me HATE you

i DON'T want to BElieve in a lIE anYmORE

April 03

Good or bad?

TODAY I REALIZE THAT THE MORE GOOD YOU WANT TO BE

THE MORE WICKED YOU TURN,

THIS DUAL BEHAVIOUR IS IN OUR NATURE

EVENTOUGH SOME WANTS TO BE GOOD OR EVEN SAINTS

HER WICKED SIDE IS ALWAYS THERE WAITING TO AWAKE

I'M NOT ANGEL I KNOW IT, BUT SOMEHOW YOU HELP ME TO RELEASE IT

SO NOW GIVE ME THAT BITTERSWEET MEDICINE, THAT NOT REALITY

TO KEEP LIVING A LIE ONCE MORE, I DON'T WANT TO BE THE LONELY ONE AGAIN

HELP TO ESCAPE LONELINESS AND TIME

LET ME ESCAPE FROM ME ONCE AGAIN.

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March 18

Winter Memory

Nothing as change, still I´m here waiting for you

With the strong feeling that I had find you

But does this is a true or a lie to keep going?

You teach me to be brave and courageous once again,

but still withouth you emptiness is filling me

all to the point of agony and pain,

so long ago I don´t remember when?

I lost you in this broken heart

And in here there´s only fragments of what we use to have

Only a false reflex, a false happiness

I´m trying to achieve but still can´t do it

Let then the snow fall from the skies into my skin

Let me taste that bitter swip, let me sleep

Until we meet again, and let this time be the real one

Let´s wait for the moment to come and when you feel the cold wind in your face,

Remember me, I will be kissing you this way, my love.

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February 21

Back to Reality

Hi, everyone I had now put some pictures of Finland I still have to put more but this computer is very slow and I want to make it like very organized je. So well I left you with this ones and then I will put more, this are landscapes.

Unfortunately I did't take as much as I wanted cause was very difficul for the cold, your hands where like frozen and was difficult to use the camere with the gloves, so there are not much or as great as I wanted, but anyway hope you like them.

February 15

Russia

Hi, just few days in here lot of problems to arrive with all the paperwork you have to do and with things that I will rather change if that can be possible for me je. But well just a quick message cause I have to go and get my ticket back Finland and see a Gothic store let's see what they had in here right? Anyway hope I will be able to send Ice Queen postcard cause my time is ending and well have lot of things to do right?, and well to say the truth at least I was feeling more welcomed in Finland but well not much to do about it, my time is ending so I better hurri up and close everuthing, this hostel I'm staying in is not that near center and is like very old and strange I don't like it altough I get to sleep very well. Well see ya I will put the photos in here when I got back Mexico so well until then just like 4 days or less in Europe.

February 14

New Places

Hello again, well right now I'm returning from Rovaniemi a place very far at north in Finland, and in the bus were lot of italian people but they really talk too much really, I was going insane really cause they were like talking a lot and louder and the only thing at that moment that I want it was sleep and a lot but well my fault for taking the night train really.

And I'm also heading to Rusia to now a little more while I'm in here, and well see ya everyone. Take care.

A shame that I couldn't go to Sweden with Angel but well money isn't enough, Russia cause it is easier to get and cheaper I think.

February 05

So far trip

Hello to everyone, I'm right now at Lahti after spending so much in Espoo here at Finland and well just going from house to house they are all students in here where I'm staying right now and very interesting ones I will say, cause they study graphic design and everything so is nice cause they had like lot of computers and technology.

The girl receiving me in here is very nice and she is the best friend from the one that receive me in Espoo that is nearby Helsinki. It's difficult for me to write a lot or even check my e-mail or put the photographs I want so this is the first message I could send for 3 days that I'm in here.

But anyway I'm having fun and the best time ever, cause I'm by myself and is nice to do it like that, well hope everything it's ok and that I had more lucky trough here. Let's keep having fun. By the way in here is 12:28 pm so is late and I'm tired and freezing in here.

January 31

Today's Fly

Hello to everyone the time has come for me this night I leave here and approach to my dream place which is Finland so I will be in there tomorrow night and well I'm happy for this, I'm going to take lot of photographs and I hope you will enjoy it. So for now is all, have to go to pack my clothes and everything. See ya!

Rompiendo mi cascaron, viajando a Finlandia.

Esta noche mi destino cambiara, otra vez.

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January 06

Difficult Night

Hoy mis queridos lectores esta es una de esas noches en las que desearia mas que nunca estar muerta,

por que? tal vez se preguntaran.

Y hay una sola respuesta a esa pregunta

y esa es que siento un dolor tan hondo en mi pecho

algo que incluso pareciera estar vivo,

que quisiera sacar de mi ser,

algo que mi alma desearia gritar a los cuatro vientos,

pero que yo soy incapaz de redactar o explicar, tal vez asi sea mejor.

Pero esto siempre pasa cuando algo demasiado bueno esta a punto de pasarme y yo lo se,

mi inconsciente, mi mente subterranea desea hacerme una mala jugada de nuevo

y me sumerge en la mas profunda de las cegueras emocionales jamas vista.

Justo ahora que debo esforzarme en otras cosas.

Cuando el viaje, el viaje

que siempre soñe esta a la vuelta de la esquina

los boletos estan en mi mano, Finlandia al fin.

Aun asi yo estoy aqui sintiendome miserable,

es que de veras alguna vez me dejaran vivir feliz

es que mi destino es ser asi?

Cuando encontrare la respuesta querido lector?, cuando?

Al fin encontrar el valor de ser yo, y nadie mas.

December 29

Escaping

I wish to escape from your arms

To leave you behind with all my voices

But then I also wish to scream, and tell you:

"Come back and please never leave me again"

But does that really will change anything

Is almost like if we never had love each other

Just an ilusion of our minds

Something never to be.... maybe

December 21

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Estas fechas en vez de tornarme en una persona feliz, no lo hacen y me vuelvo mas bien triste, por tantos recuerdos perdidos en la nieve, despues de todo tal vez solo la nieve podria hacerme feliz, pero estamos aqui en un pais donde no existe tal cosa, que lastima por otro lado tambien tal vez se vuelva realidad mi deseo de viajar a Finlandia, asi que pues bueno ojala que si. Les comparto el bello regalo que me ha dejado Ice Queen, muchas gracias. Y lo mismo a todos Felices Fiestas!!

Somewhere in time, lost in my memories

The white night full of snow

Still present on my mind as your final goodbye

Your glance at me, broke my heart

And left a piece of ice instead

Goodbye my new light, be better wherever you are

Fulfill your dreams and think of me

Remember me, in order to not die.

December 09

BROKEN DOLL

WORTHLESS AS A BROKEN DOLL CAN BE

LOST ON MY OWN CHAOS, MY OWN WORLD

BLOOD TEARS TO SAY GOODBYE

THIS WORLD IS ONLY TO BE ALL THE SAME

NOT TO BE DIFERENT

THAT'S WHY I'M THIS HURT

NOBODY UNDERSTAND ME

AND I THINK NO ONE SHOULD

BECAUSE WHEN THEY START DOING IT

THEY BECAME AFRAID OF ME

ALL THIS MAGIC INSIDE OF ME

IS ONCE AGAIN MAKING ME

FEEL LONELY AND USELESS.

November 24

New Born Places

Finding a new light, a new person to trust in

Will this be faithfull to me?

Will this be my support?

I can´t think of anything more,

I´m tired....

I can´t be hurt anymore, I won´t survive

The last pieces of my broken spirit

Are lost in the endless sea of time and space.